User Profile

I am a very quiet and reserved person, who has great difficulty in forming close relationships with anyone. Though as usual whenever you try to make a general sweeping statement about yourself, that isn't entirely true. With my family and the very few people in the world that I trust and am comfortable around, I am a very different person. With those people, I am always laughing and joking and trying to wind them up. I show how incredibly self opinionated I am by discussing every subject under the sun and insisting that I know best (even when I don't!). Unfortunately, however, that side of my character is seen by very few people and is rarely visible online. Hopefully, via this livejournal I can change that.

The biggest problem that I have is with trust. I don't trust anybody very much and I have no trust at all in strangers. This is due to how many times in the past that my trust has been betrayed. Far too often people who have been my friend to my face have actually had no time for me at all, and have ultimately shown their true colours in a cruel and unpleasant way. As I'm someone who takes things like that very much to heart, I have been badly hurt by this and it has left internal scars that are still nowhere near healed.

Another problem that I have is with fear. I am afraid of almost everything and for me to try something new usually takes some kind of miracle. For instance, posting this bio has been a terribly difficult thing for me to do. Many times I have thought about posting something here only for my fears to get the better of me. So by posting this I've actually managed to overcome those fears, at least for the time being. Hopefully, this can be the first step towards me being able to try other new things.

Enough about me in general, what's this journal going to contain? What it will basically be will be my thoughts on life, the universe and everything. The usual sort of livejournal, I guess. Opinions will be given. Questions will be asked. And no punches will be pulled. Hopefully, once in a while I will stumble on something that you actually might want to read. Stranger things have happened after all!

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